Wednesday, September 25, 2013

random thoughts on God and indecision

When we struggle and deal with issues and uneasiness we tend to assume God is working in that to tell us to go out and get out of the situation, when in reality he may want to work on us internally so that we don't get uneasy in trying times and trust him more.

When I feel lost out here (which anybody that lives abroad can do) I constantly wonder why and assume God is telling me I need to go home and or find something new. I look for answers externally and try to find what's safe. When in reality God may want me to change my perspective on an issue or trust him more in the trying times. Does worry pain and anguish truly come from God? Are those feelings we get a device for him to tell us to go back and do what's safe? Or  is he trying to take us through the worry and issues so that we can be strengthened? 

Why do athletes lift heavy objects...so that they are stronger to perform the skills they have been gifted. Maybe the burdens on our shoulders are only placed so that when lifted you have greater power and other burdens seem inconsequential. Carrying around a sack of potatoes all day makes the weight of a loaf of bread feel like a feather. 

If we don't go through that internal strengthening we are left weak to handle adverse situations. And there are always more to come in life. But the stronger our faith grows in adversity the greater our trust grows in God,  the greater he provides for us. Not necessarily a new Car/house/money (sorry Olsteen followers) but in a true sense of his presence that is a joy like no other. The greatest reward.

By the end of October I need to decide essentially what my plan is for next year starting next April. If you know me well enough, you know that I struggle to know what I'm doing next weekend let alone several months from now. If I had it my way I could just float through from one exciting adventure to the next and continue to grow and experience new things. However, its important to have that balance. What's your next adventure can quickly seem the same as what did you have for breakfast? It becomes normal and you reach a plateau. 

The great thing is I know God is going to be in on my decision to stay or go home either way. But to be completely honest, I at times am lost in knowing which direction is truly right for me. I try to find signs in everything as to whether I should stay or go and the one thing I realized in doing that is if you are looking for signs for something you will always find them. We want to say "Alright if I walk by someone eating a tuna fish sandwich (random I know) on my way to work, then God is telling me I should do A but if I dont then I should do B." The truth is God works in so many amazing ways that right where you end up is right where you should be regardless of whether you want some ridiculous sign. 

I guess the point of this post is that we shouldn't let our own fears and doubts get in the way of what God has planned for us. If you ask God to carry you through the storm, its important not to jump out of the boat as its still floating or you may never reach that beautiful place he wants to carry you to.

A few of my favorite verses:


Proverbs 3:5
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
Isaiah 12:2
2 Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation."
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Matthew 6:27
Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

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